Thoughts become action .... scary if it actually does in a weird way!!!!!!!!



Freaky friday and scary saturday.... scariest weekend of my life!!!!! For others it might seem like a small accident for me... the mere thought that my parents could have been injured seriously or worse... i shiver... i have always been a home bird... as much as i crib about being close to home, visiting home often or parents visiting, deep down i love it and that's what keeps my sanity intact and give stability to my otherwise messy, chaotic life. When they come my life is almost spiritual. Its devoid all things that get me into trouble, I am somehow a much better person, stronger and mentally more stable. The fact that all that could have been snatched away from me i don't even visit that thought again!!!! I know we are all attached to our parents, love our parents etc. But I suppose only when something like this happens one actually takes a reality check. I recently dreamt of being murdered in a riot (tortured and killed) in front of their eyes. Don't know what that dream means but i just tried to forget about it as my reaction to recent violence that took place in bombay!!! but still... anyway they are alive and safe back home!!! but their pain and suffering worries me... may be i wished them away soo much that i am being given a glimpse of what it is without them... appa and amma i will never wish you away.... i love you guys and can't fathom a life without you... i will be gone too... i know i don't have the strength to face a life without you.....there would be no life....